I’ve been really struggling for the past year and I don’t know what to do about it. I think I might have depression. I hate myself so much, every time something bad happens I convince myself it’s all my fault and everyone would be better off without me. I have really bad urges to hurt myself. I have before and it’s been better the past few weeks but it’s still there. Sometimes I think about ending my life. I feel really worthless and lonely. All I do all day is sleep, play video games or watch tv. If I have to do something it’s horrible and I feel like it’s the end of the world. I stay up all night and sleep into the after noon. Sometimes I go to bed really early and still wake up at like 2pm. Some days I don’t eat at all because I feel fat and want to loose weight. Other days I eat all day long. I’ve told my parents about a lot of this and i was in therapy for a little while. I’ve been diagnosed with social anxiety and I take medication for that. It’s supposed to help but it doesn’t and I feel like no one understands. There’s nothing really wrong with my life so I feel really guilty for being this way. I don’t know what to do. This is probably a stupid idea but i really don’t want to talk to my parents or my friends about it.