I mourn the loss of myself being physically healthy. 9 years ago I was taking care of my farm, worked full time. I would have my truck loaded down with animal feed and toss them dozens with ease, 50 lbs was nothing for me.

I’m still not able to accept that I am likely only going to get worse physically as time goes on.

I think I have come to terms with Bipolar for the most part. Ptsd , nope.

I agree try to journal, it’s a great help to many.