I'm so sorry, @HayMich Things like this are always complicated. No one is at fault here. I'd say you have two options: try to keep her as a friend like you did before by repressing your feelings, which may be very hard to do, or just decide to put an end to this friendship so that you'll be able to move on. They are both rather painful decisions. I don't blame you AT ALL for struggling. I hope whathever decision you make will be the best one for you. Wishing you plenty of peace and love and sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you and her, HayMich