Hello winchestler: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central. There's a sub-forum, here on PC, dedicated to the subject of social anxiety. Here's a link just in case you haven't already noticed it:

https://psychcentralforums.com/socia...ective-mutism/

And then here are links to a selection of 9 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that touch upon some of the concerns you raised:

Depression: Symptoms, Types & Treatments | Psych Central

Living with Depression: A Guide for Coping with Depressive Feelings | Psych Central

How to Survive Suicidal Thoughts

Social Anxiety Overview | Psych Central

https://psychcentral.com/eating-disorders/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/emoti...g-self-hatred/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/when-you-feel-worthless/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/breaki...ds-of-badness/

https://psychcentral.com/guilt/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.