golden_eve, from your post what I got from it is there are a few things that you are actually connected with. That is that you feel crummy and withdrawn and not your usual self. Now I know that may not be much to go on but it could be a very good reason for you to jot down reasons why you may think you are feeling this way. These reasons you jot down might be right or wrong. That really doesn't matter. It just gets the ball rolling I guess in you trying to get in touch with what sort of emotions are making you feel this way. I know this sounds goofy and it is coming for a 16 year old kid, but you might want to give it a go.