Thank you for the responses.
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Originally Posted by Bill3
I question trying to be her "best friend". I suspect that is going to be extremely painful for you.
She is wearing your ring, the symbol of your love. She wants to break up, but she also wants to keep you.
That strikes me as extremely painful, and grossly unfair, to you.
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I honestly don't even know what she wants. I know she's confused and doesn't know why her feelings didn't stay the same over the course of a month. She wanted to marry me at the end of May, then couldn't stand the thought of staying by the beginning of July. She also mentioned that "The thought of losing you as a girlfriend was not as painful as the thought of losing you as a best friend." We are close, I'm not going to deny that. But this is somewhere between a "break" and an actual breakup, so I don't even know where to begin healing at this point. My heart isn't letting me recover and heal, just because of all the things she said that lead me to believe this isn't over.
I already told her that she's going to have to reach out to me, that I'd need space for at least a week, but if she waited a month to talk to me again I was going to assume she was gone. We haven't talked since last week. I'm tempted to text her just because I found something of hers in my car that I'm sure she'd want, but I can't bring myself to do it yet.
It's hard since I really don't know what I'm healing from, and everything just hurts in the meantime. And I can't shake this feeling that I'm cursed since this always seems to happen; things are going great in a relationship, they say something about being happy or wanting to be with me, then within a few weeks they completely turn around. I don't think I react any differently than they do, but who knows at this point.