Ezrigirl, first off I am not sure what you are referring to about making a stupid mistake today, but going off your meds without a doctors approval is not a wise decision at all. Not only for your Bipolar needs, but also for the withdrawal of some of the medicines that you have have been prescribed as well as the physical side effects they may have on you if you go off off them if you go off of them really quick such as seizures. I am not going to address the drinking of alcohol because I think you already know that isn't the answer to your problems and is not what you should be doing. I am just being completely honest because that is what I do.