I know I just need to wait, it takes time for anything to work. I just started therapy last week, it is very early.

My question is - what can I be doing, in-between sessions, to help myself get better? Is there anything I should be doing?

No official diagnosis yet...but I think I have symptoms of maybe Bipolar II or just hypomanic Bipolar, or maybe Borderline Personality Disorder. Also some internet addiction and sex addiction thrown in there just for kicks. And of course some ongoing depression. And whatever it is that makes me avoid my work when I get too much to do.

The thing is...I really feel like I "shouldn't" be depressed. I read some of your stories of child abuse and neglect and traumatic events and death of loved ones and all these huge issues and I think, gosh, there really isn't anything I should be depressed about. All my life's problems are my own cause. I did this to myself. I f*cked up my own life. No one abused me...I'm abusing myself. I just wish I could snap out of this. There are people with problems 100 times worse than mine...I should just get over it.

I have the book "Mind over Mood" on Cognitive Therapy that a previous therapist gave me 2 years ago. That therapist....did not work out. Long story. But I do still have that book, and I never really finished reading it. Is it any good? Have any of you tried it? It's kind of like a workbook.

Then again...I really don't have a lot of time to read. I should be working. I need to just GET OVER THIS and focus on my work and just stop this. I just don't know how!

Any suggestions?