Please don't give up, @Nxious! I know things seem REALLY hard now but I'm sure you can make. Like ennie has said, you did a GOOD thing by asking for possible vacancies to your "friends". That means that you're TRYING which is GREAT! Keep trying! I hope you'll be able to find a job soon. Please keep looking as much as you can. I'd suggest a therapist as well like sarahsweets has already wisely suggested, but you've said that you're broke right now so that may be difficult. Keep looking! Are there any services in your city or near it that can help unemployed people? Just asking! Try to get ALL the help you can get. Are there any family members that may help you financially? If there are, try to ask them perhaps. Keep us updated on your situation and let us know how it goes and if you find something. Sending many safe, warm hugs and many happy and positive vibes to you, Nxious, and to ALL the people you Love and who TRULY Love you and Accept you for who you TRULY are!