Please listen to what the others have said, @Ezrigirl! It is REALLY dangerous! We do care about you. That's why we're writing to you. I understand that life can be really hard and that sometimes you just want to quit it all. But it will do you more harm than good. Please listen to us. Your safety must be the priority above everything else. Stop it while you're still on time. I hope you'll read this thread and that you'll decide to stop. Please go to your Pdoc if you can. If things get worse try to go to an hospital. I know it's not easy to do this but it IS for your own health. Please keep us updated on your situation. Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, Ezrigirl, and to ALL the people you Love and who TRULY Love you and Accept you for who you truly are! We are amogn those people! THAT'S A PROMISE! PLEASE DO STAY SAFE, MY FRIEND! You deserve MUCH, MUCH better than this!