Thank you bchlyn,Christian86, and Kiya. I never realized that by wanting change that it would be helpful. The hard part is changing now..the hardest part is dealing with the past. Christian86 you asked what you could do to help..all of you have helped me more than I ever imagined anyone could..everyone here is so amazing and kind-hearted..just keep up your kind nature. It's nice to have this place..I don't think I could ever tell my friends..I've thought about it I just can't bring myself to do it. I know I don't want my parents to ever know that I still self-injure. It's nice to have some support. I care about all of you so much thank you for being here and supporting me..I'm going to need alot of it here soon because I'm going to try and quite SI tonight..wiether or not I make it know that is the question.