Gosh I am so sorry it worked out against you. How traumatic for you to have gone through all this. It just isn't fair and I imagine that amongst all the feelings that have descended upon you that there is also anger and resentment. I so wish I could make this easier for you.

I feel badly it did not turn out as it should have. You are right to feel peeved that the hope I had given you turned out false in the end. I apologise it was dashed. Please know I care.