I feel like the depression is back, but it has been gone for months. Even with H and T support, I am feeling like everything is hard and overwhelming. Today T asked why I couldn't just let myself be angry. I said if I were to get angry it would end up being anger turned inward which is the definition of depression. I feel so weighed down. And I feel so alone. And pathetic



Figuring out the triggering syntax is always, well, triggering for me. I'm so stupid.