Hang in there, @malika138! You're a warrior. Don't you EVER forget that. I'm glad your H and T are trying to help you. We're here for you as well. Don't give up! Things CAN and WILL get better. I'm sure of that. Just keep fighting as much as you possibly can like you're already WONDERFULLY doing. Keep fighting. We're here for you. You know we are. I hope you'll find peace and serenity soon. Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, your husband, your family, your therapist and EVERYONE you Love and who TRULY Loves you anc Accept you for Who you TRULY are without ANY reservations! KEEP ROCKING!