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Originally Posted by Ezrigirl
I am very aware of that, and more so than you understand. Before I was treated for being bipolar, I was drinking alcohol at the age of 12 and abusing alcohol at the age of 14. Still being alive at the age of 29, I will say I have a 40% chance to be alive to be 50. Being alive to be 80, is really slim to none. I have been a rationalist, not a idealist all my life. Very few people when they get into their early 20's debate with themselves, with education, with health, with the location they live at, and other minor factors -- what is the rational lifespan I should have. When I did this thought experiment, I came to understand that my lifespan is going to be shorter than average. When anyone accepts they are going to have a shorter lifespan than average, they do become more reckless with their lifestyle.
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That is great that you came to the realization that your lifespan is going to be shorter than most. I don't really agree fully with how you came up with that rationale since all the contributing factors you mentioned above were things that you could have controlled at some point in your life.
When I was held captive and was human trafficked everyday for 15 months of my life there were many days that I had a gun held to head and I didn't think I was going to make it past the age of 13. Life has a crazy way of changing, but the main thing is you have to stay positive, stay strong, and fight like hell. I could have gave up been found in some back alley or a dumpster dead. I kept myself positive through that horrific time. Also if it wasn't for the efforts of many and I mean people who did not give up on me and one anonymous caller one night to the Police I don't know where I would be.
The thing is you have many members here that are pushing for you and caring for you. Not only in this thread, but I have seen other threads as well. It's your time Ezrigirl to look at all this feedback and say to yourself I need to change. It is at that point now that is is only you that can make that stand to start to reverse this rationale you have and start living a more positive lifestyle. Start fighting for yourself. You have to take this first step in the right direction.
I have blabbed on enough. This is the last I am going to talk about this. Ezrigirl, I truly hope you make the right decision for your own health.