Seeing my T and pdoc today. I’m in trouble. High anxiety plus other symptoms have me spiralling into oblivion. So much going on. I was getting better and I ****ed up, though this result is not all my fault. Rehearsing what to say. I’m guessing IP will be strongly encouraged. I can no longer go on like this. Unfortunately I have heaps on in the next week. Appointments and such. Maybe I can push it back. Maybe I can stand strong and stay out of hospital. I can’t think clearly enough to know what’s best.