<font color="purple">...but sometimes, I just feel like I can't help it. She, being my future stepmom. She really is a nice girl underneath it all, but there are a few glaring things about her that I just...erk. It rubs me the wrong way. Badly. And no, I can't tell her anything about that because my dad will leap onto the defensive (to "protect" her I presume)

#1. She complains about well... everything. She can find the gray cloud to every silver lining out there. It's really hard for me to be all optimistic and happy in her presense if she always snaps about things. She is perfectionist in every sense, and things are hardly ever perfect around her, even if just a liiittle comprimise would make everything better.

#2. She is so sensitive, and insecure. I know I shouldn't be bothered by this, but it get so tiresome hearing my dad late at night trying to reassure her that yes, he WOULD like to go to ____ and that he isn't just lying to make her happy. I tried my best with her early on for her to know that she's worth something to me, but sometimes I don't think she get's it that yeah, I do weird things, and yeah, it takes me quite awhile to adjust to new people.

#3. That I can say absolutely nothing to her about any problems that I may have with her because I dunno, that would ruin things. She'd fall into some sort of deep pit of depression, and dad would just yell at me and tell me that I shouldn't say stuff like that. My god, WORLD WAR 3 broke out just because I wouldn't let her go on my computer. With my dad and her being on one saide, and my brother and I being on the other (I'm glad my brother stood up for me, I don't think my dad had any clue at the time what kind of verbal assult he was throwing at me, all I wanted to do was be left alone at that point and he just wouldn't go away, I kicked him out of my room and he threatened to break my door down. OVER. A COMPUTER) When I told him why, he acted almost like he was offended, like it was some sort of insult to them that I was too paranoid to let people on my computer, and excersizing my right not to let other people use MY property.

Who now, #3 turned into quite a tangent, now didn't it?

Let me say that it isn't like this all the time, it's just the way I feel whenever a visit from her is impending or we are going to her house soon. If she were to just let things go for a little bit, I'm sure that it would be alot easier to see her nice side.</font>