By nature, what does a bipolar person does different, than a person without a mental illness. They pick up a firearm, place it to their head, and blow their brains out.

I am bipolar, and if I am going to have a long term relationship with another person. They have to accept to the fact, they could be the first person to discover my body after a suicide. Say I was married years from now, and then take my life for some reason. How would my spouse move on? Since it was a same sex marriage, my wife can move on and start dating again. What is she going to say? Well, my wife took her own life, and you said your divorced. Is it fair to my spouse, to spend time thinking about what to do after a suicide: for the whole of our marriage?