Thank you. All of this is truly comforting because I feel like I can't talk to my friends about it without getting the weird looks and the awkward questions. As far as they know I love sex, it's great, it's just that I don't meet anyone I like. I feel like if I were to say the opposite that it would just make everything awkward.

It's really strong in me, this feeling against everything. I don't even like being touched in any form by the opposite sex (or same sex). I'm happy living without that, I just feel like I'm missing out on something. Isn't part of your formative years or your early adulthood to go through rites of passage and experience things? I feel like I am missing out on that.

The only other time, aside from the missing something bit and being different, that I really dislike being this way is when it comes to companionship. I may not want to be touched or have sex but for some reason I really want that closeness that you get through boyfriends or the like. I can't even explain it since it does in a sense sort of contrast what asexuality means to me.

Ugh. Frustrated.