Hey Wander, thanks for updating us. I've been thinking of you and sending you well wishes often. I know this is an incredibly difficult time.

You seem self aware despite all you are going through. That amazes me and I think it shows your strength. You have been swimming upstream for a long time and I hold hope that things will calm down for you soon. I know how much you are worried that you'll end up in IP. Maybe it is time to let go of that worry a little as you are already dealing with so much. You've been before. You know the drill there. You know you can survive even though it is not what you want. You know you will be safe there and your T and Pdoc wouldn't suggest it if it weren't necessary. I hope it doesn't happen, but you're going to make it if it does. I don't want to make light of the difficulty of an IP stay, but I thought it might be less traumatic if you can reframe your fear of it slightly before you see your pdoc. I'm pulling for you and wishing you all the best. Keep posting if it helps to get it out.