I understand akekaomen. I went to work about two weeks ago and I showed my boss (whom I love, she's like a sister to me) my hand, which was shaking violently. I've been trying to talk to my doctor/psychiatrist about trying me out on an anxiety med to see if it will help. But given that my anxiety/depression right now is being caused by someone at work, it's really hard to be there. Sometimes it is really hard to tell if I'm panicking because I'm so depressed and it hurts that badly or if I'm just straight up going into panic mode because I'm that scared/stressed out.