How king have you been with this T? It took about 18 months for me to feel secure with my T, to know that she wasn't going to leave me because of anything I said or did (except threatening her or her family, which she said was a deal breaker and which I would never do anyway). And now, four years in, I know that I could survive if she did have to shut down her practice for soon reason.

It was a frequent fear during the first year of therapy, though. I found distraction the most useful thing to deal with the fear, get your mind focused on something else, read a book or surf the web or bake something.

I'm sorry you're going through this.