my t has me keep a chart and i the beginning i used it to mark my failures... and felt like i was starting all over every time i cut... now i use it to mark my success... my t uses it to track my patterns... and to hold me accountable... and when i am good and journal too... he can compare... i haven't been too good at journaling the past couple months...which is really unusual for me... anyway what i am trying to say is maybe you shouldn't make things cut and dry... i am not saying that i think you should cut... but when i say "i am not going to cut anymore" it kind of sabotages me... does that make sense.

in the past year i haven't cut 351 days... lyn