I grew up lonely.Also I used to chase after a guy who didn't want me.All my relationships even just being friends were one sided.I am lonely now been lonely all my life.Family used and abused me.But I have been free from my abusers five years.
I still have health issues since age 24 I have have had mental illness and chronic physical illness.I need to lose weight and get fit I am failing at that!

However I might have the opportunity to qualify as a counsellor it would take five years courses and study but it's something I think I can do and I want to do it!Having the means to earn my own living is motivating me.So I have never had much success in life but I have an opportunity now to do something with my life and that makes me feel optimistic!