Wander, I'm glad that your therapist is aware of your situation. I'm so sorry that you are feeling so unwell. Thank you for sharing an update on your appointment. I hope that between your therapist and psychiatrist that you are able to avoid any hospitalization. We are here to support you always.

Christina and Wild Coyote, I do hope your pain eases soon.

bluebicycle, that's curious that your doctor does not order blood work even once per year. I suppose I don't blame you for not wanting to go, given that fact. I do hope the voices and alarm sound you hear stop. Perhaps reading your book will help.

I didn't tell my husband, but this morning I officially quit my private French classes. The French instructor has caused me great stress over the past months, and has been pressuring me to schedule the next lesson. I've talked about this decision with my therapist at length, and she agrees that stopping the classes is best, at this time. This may sound horrible, but I'm not sure if I'll tell my husband the truth about the French classes, if he asks. I may just say I'm attending the last ones, and just not. I am not a person who lies, but I am not totally opposed to fibs that do more good than harm. I told my therapist that it is even possible that I may study French more on my own, at this time, than with classes scheduled. I mentioned here before that the stress of the classes made me freeze from even picking up the book. I'm just too stressed right now to add more stress. I'll consider group (not private) lessons in September. If the French instructor contacts me again, I may just not respond. My email to him was meant to be final, though of course it was friendly (if that's the right word). I didn't have it in me to write the email in French. Plus, such an email must be written effectively. His English is poor, but his wife's isn't.

Today is my first day home totally alone. After my pet died, my husband worked from home, and then we left for vacation together. I can spend the day unpacking from the trip. I also need to go to the grocery store and briefly visit my neighbor.