I screwed up my final project for the one class. She is letting me revise but I don’t understand where I went wrong so my revision will probably be no good either. I need to get at least a B or I will have to retake the class and my GPA will suffer. I am on academic warning because of a class I failed when I was too sick to withdraw from it properly. My GPA is a 2.93 and I believe it needs to be a 3.0. So I’m right there, but if I get a C in this class I might not make it over. I’m so mad at myself. I followed the “clues to complete the FBA” to the letter. I do not understand how to fix it. I’m going to try though.

As a result I bought a pack of cigarettes and smoked half. RS is not angry with me but I am. I feel terrible. Two steps forward, one step back.

I think I had another hospital dream last night but I’m not sure. I know I woke up with my heart racing and breathing heavy but I’m not sure why. I wish these nightmares would stop.

However, on the bright side, I had a great time at the water park today with RS and my son. We played on the slides, the lazy river, and went swimming in the pool. I forgot how much I enjoy swimming. Usually it’s too cold for me to go in but it was perfect today. I’m dead tired now. So I had a good day despite messing up my project and smoking.

Tomorrow we are going to the zoo down the shore so that should be fun too. Then I will come home and revise my project and hope for the best. Work starts on Friday.