Hi, first off I am sorry you are suffering with this. I do not suffer with Bipolar disorder so I am not going to say I know what you are going through. I am going to try and answer this question you asked yourself though. You said , "Why Try"? I have a simple answer for this question. I asked this question myself not but a just a few weeks ago and here is the response I got. "Because you can." Each day is a new day to start over. A clean slate. Sure there are things lingering in the past, but it is a clean slate to try and tackle them in that new day. That is why we get up and try again I was told. Life isn't easy and I can sure tell you that and I am only 16 years old and I have been to Hell and back a few times. There has been many times especially during the 15 month horrific ordeal I was in was going on that I wanted to give up, but each day was a new day that I kept on going and hoping for an end that did thank God eventually come. So as simple as that may sound for an answer I truly believe and am living that. I hope that helps just a little.