I;ve been debating this for some time now. I really like my sponsor and she's been incredibly supportive through my various relapses. She even let me stay over at her house one time when I was detoxing and it wasn't safe for me to stay on my own.

The thing is, she has big time mental health issues of her own and now is continually down. She and her husband are also under considerable financial strain at the moment due to insecurities around his job. Whenever we talk, I feel like I'm the one giving support. I don't mind a little role reversal because I think every relationship has give and take in it, but it's starting to drag me down. I also know she doesn't really work the steps herself so she really can't help me work them & frankly I need some direction. I'm ok on my own up to a point, but I really believe that if I'm going to have solid sobriety, for a change, i need to be really working the steps and because I'm a procrastinator I need someone who will help me stay on track.

I'd just feel bad about firing her, because it feels like kicking a dog whose down. And i know she means really well, she's just not a strong sponsor.

--splitimage