One of the things I am struggling with is letting go of the past. Remembering how I was treated (ignored, disrespected, criticized, punished .... etc), and how I failed to have an average life, determines my current state of mind, which is depression and discouragement and self-pity. I have to let go, to start building my life, which is a wreck right now with no job, no friends, and no relationship, and live far away from family (as if they care!!), and no one is going to fix it for me. I have to start over, but I am still clueless how, and where to find the energy and courage to start! I still quit every time I start doing something. Every aspect of my life is depressing (no money, and no social support to the point I only talk to myself not to go crazy). From the moment I wake up, I start thinking what failure in life I am!! It's perpetuating itself. Self-fulfilling prophecy, but I struggle to let go.