I went No Contact on my ex two years ago and I've barely spoken to him since then. Once I finally escaped his lies and manipulations, I found a sense of happiness and stability that I haven't felt in years. I'm doing great in my career and I've reconnected with my family. I'll admit that he made me feel amazing at first. But that didn't last long. He made me anxious and unsure of myself, especially during those last few months. I was miserable with him, always feeling like I was standing at the edge of a cliff. Why then am I getting this urge to call him? I know where it will lead. I know he won't change and he'll make me feel miserable all over again.

I made this account because I was having these feelings, but then I didn't post because I was too afraid to acknowledge them. I didn't want these feelings to be real and I thought they'd go away if I didn't think about them. I thought I was over this.