Almost 3am here and haven't been able to fall asleep. H called me a while ago and told me about a driver he had that stood in front of his car at the airport and wouldn't move. Threatened to sue him and the driving company. People are a bit much. I told him he should have called security but instead gave the guy a few dollars and another rider gave him $20 apparently. I told H he better not stay out driving until 7am again.
I talked to T about the hospital today and he told me he appreciated me bringing things up like that even when I'm unsure about it. He said he feels that part of me thinks it might be a good idea and I agree, but I told him no time feels like the right time. I told him my fear now that I'd go in and my grandma would die while I was in. We didn't talk much about it, so I didn't tell him I'm thinking of agreeing this week after my class ends and my son's birthday if I'm still feeling like this. He told me before we ended that he is being sincere about calling him if I want this weekend because it would be better than if I did SH and ended up hurting myself.