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Originally Posted by ennie
If you think in broad terms of changing your habits, it may be overwhelming, since are dealing with various complex issues that go all the way back to your childhood.
So maybe for now, you can just focus on the next step in this journey.
What would be the very next step you could take?
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Well I've been thinking/reading/writing about this a lot yesterday and the day before, and a lot of it made sense. And I was feeling a lot better about it yesterday (and today but other things happened today). I don't feel like I care about my appearance so much, I think it's finally sinking in that my looks don't matter and are neutral and no worse than anyone else's.
I was out most of today and loads of people saw me and I didn't care what they thought of my appearance. Of course I never tried to look at obsession objects but I fell uninterested right now. So I'm just going to keep telling myself that:
- My appearance is neutral, the same as everyone else's.
- If other people take offence, that's their problem, I'm not forcing them to be attracted to me.
- I am worthy of obsession objects just as I am with anything else. They are all the same.
- Nobody is staring at me, they have better things to do.
- I won't be controlled by my ego.
If I ever feel "unworthy" or "shameful" then I just have to remember these things. I've noticed improvement already, so hopefully it can keep going this way.