well thanx for all of the advice and i have tried to talk to some people but unforntually it only made my life worse. i just don't know what to do i really need help now. idk maybe i would be better off dead there aint anything worthliveing for me anymore. all the people i tried talking to are not my friends anymore and my parents think i am crazy and they want to send me away even more now. before i told them thry wantted me gone but now they really want me to be out of their lives. also i found out i lost 2 other friends in a car wreak the other day and also i lost this other friend cuase her grandmom who she is livein wit said she is never allowed to ever talk to me again and never see me ever again which is rought cuase she saved my life so that makes it even worse on us. but i think i am gonna try suicicde 1 more time maybe i will get lucky and jsut die. i just don't know what else to do anymore.