I haven't been out since i don't know how long, i find i'm losing some friends because of it. I just can't bring myself to go out i get so panicked. I worry that something bad will happen to me again. I hate the fact that everyone my age are all going out and getting drunk or having a good time. Why do i still worry about leaving my flat, it's been 4 years since i was raped. I try and force myself but if i do when i'm out i'm just really really down. When will it change when will i have the confidence to be normal like everyone else.