Just to clarify, I don't see images in my head, but when I am talking with others I often dissociate, and their talk starts to appear just a noise or voice in the air, and their presence and faces are just images. Like I hear them and see them, but they are not real. Like in a dream.

I have a bad anxiety, and probably it plays a role in all of this. I have denied my problems for a very long time, but things are getting worse and worse. Therapy is something I am avoiding. Maybe because I am afraid of change. Of being accountable to someone. Of admitting I am in need for help and I need to put my pride aside and start doing what others might ask me to do. I don't know.