Hello navpirx: Thank you for bringing your struggle here to PC. I see this is your first post. So... welcome to Psych Central. You mentioned the effect your mental state is having on your interaction with your "closest ones". So the relationships forum, here on PC, may be one you'll also be interested in checking out. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/relat...communication/

I do understand what you're experiencing. I've had similar experiences. Mine is, perhaps, linked to depression & anxiety. However it is also likely, to some extent, to be the result of aging. I wish I had some great insight into how to overcome what you're experiencing. Unfortunately I don't. In my case I simply strive to accept the limitations I have developed & to "power through" my own lethargy. I just know what needs to be done; & I make myself do it. I wish I could say that doing so has made it all less difficult over time. But it has not. I've simply learned to live with it.

Here are links to 2 articles by our host Dr. John Grohol, Psy.D., from Psych Central's archives, on the subject of depression. These articles also provide links to additional articles on the subject:

Depression: Symptoms, Types & Treatments | Psych Central

Living with Depression: A Guide for Coping with Depressive Feelings | Psych Central

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.