I've been where you are -- multiple times throughout my life -- and I can sense that you are treading water as far as what direction to go now that you're through with your studies. That is totally normal -- to feel rudderless, without direction, wondering, "what now?" Angst. It's the worst feeling.

I doubt that you are a quitter who is mentally weak. I KNOW mentally weak people, and they are superficial and could care less about their impact on the world, b/c they just want to make money and be popular and important and will step on whomever they can step on, to achieve their success.

I think you are quite intelligent, but are held back by self-doubt and by the lack of resources specifically meant to help you flourish. Whether that be therapy, or a creative outlet, or a hobby. By not pursuing something -- a job, a hobby, a philosophy, friendships, etc. -- you are in essence, treading water, waiting, which is not good for you. I've treaded plenty of "water" and lost out on opportunities that would have given me great success and happiness career-wise, socially-wise, spiritually-wise.

It can be very frustrating when you are an intelligent person who has -- for whatever reason -- found themselves "disconnected" from resources, people, experiences, opportunities because that will cause you to flounder. I've been there and it creates a vicious circle of overthinking and distorted thinking.

There's a TON of books you could get from your local library about finding your direction. They involve doing self-assessment of your interests, etc.,. your values, etc. and they are meant to help you narrow down who you are, what your interests are, and ways you can pursue those interests that will make you happier. One book that comes to mind, is an oldie but goodie, "What Color Is Your Parachute."

Also, do informational interviews with people in the industries that interest you. Just have a conversation with them about their line of work, the path they took, and ask them for advice for your situation. Go talk to your community center about classes that you could take that may interest you. Or, join a freelance website (there's a ton of those) to do different kinds of jobs online (virtual assistant, customer service, data entry, admin support, freelance write, digital marketing, copywriting, you name it...).

It SUCKS being unemployed. It can really mess with your self-esteem, distort your view of the world, and make you feel like giving up. But don't let it. I know you've been jobless for 3 years, but you can turn that around. You can. I'm there right now. But I'm keeping myself optimistic between pessimistic moments, by reaching out to all the resources i can think of, to help me figure out my path, while i continue to apply for jobs.

Pick one thing as your goal to accomplish for the day, or for the week and focus only on doing that. Try that for a while and see how if it helps you at all.