Hello all,
This is the first time I've ever joined a forum and decided to seek help from others online. But I feel so overwhelmed and I don't understand myself. I'm in this ridiculous situation and it makes no sense that I'm even anxious at all but I've been crying nonstop lately and I just want to get back to normal, and I'm hoping that someone can make sense of it all. So here it goes...

My mom who is in her mid 50s has decided to change jobs. She's a school teacher and has been teaching in the same school since I was a baby. I graduated from the same school as well. A decade ago. So on Monday my mom told me she got a random offer to start teaching in a different local school that might offer her some better conditions. Tuesday she went for an interview and on Wednesday she accepted the offer. It's all so fast...

I congratulated her and calmed her down because she was so nervous. She expressed how sad she is to leave her old school because of all the memories she has and she said she knows how tough it's going to be for her.

I legitimately feel crushed. I don't want my mom to feel stressed or anxious. I want her to be happy and content, and maybe she will get all of that by making the change, who knows...
But... I'm also thinking what if she made the wrong decision? What if she will come to regret it? What if she will feel incredible pressure and stress? What if shell be miserable? What if I should have asked her tough questions before she made the decision????

I hate change. I'm terrible with it, and I'm sure I'm projecting a lot. I'd have all of these fears, and maybe my mom doesn't have them... She is much stronger than me. And I can't express these feelings to her because I don't want her to question the decision that has already been made. I don't want to put any stress on her. I don't want to make her sad...

Change is normal, I get it, but why am I crying nonstop about this?! THIS does NOT make sense. It's not my life that's changing, then why does it feel like it is? I offered my mom to help her move stuff from one school to the next, but I feel like I'll break down at some point. What is wrong with me??? How can I get it together and support my mom along the way? How can I make this better for her? How can I resolve the anxiety within myself? Why do I fee! This anxiety in the first place???

Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for reading this novel....