Wild Coyote, I think you are among the kindest, most supportive members here, and there are many wonderful members here. I am deeply sorry about what you are going through. Deeply sorry. Although it's terrible what situation you've been put in, and we'd all rather that you be happy and well, we are more than happy to support you. We want to give back to each other. Giving back support and encouragement is as welcome as receiving it.

Wander, please don't be too scared. Will you have access to internet while you're there? If not, finding a friend is helpful. There are also other activities there that can help make such a stay a little more bearable. Art therapy? Dance or music therapy? Having time to meditate? They help many. As for "chemical restraint", I'm not 100% sure what you mean. Do you mean that you were forcibly given an injection with an AP or benzo? If so, you're definitely not alone. I have been given injections and sent (even dragged) to isolation rooms several times during hospitalizations. I know many can find them scary or even traumatic, but sometimes they can help with safety. Sometimes zoning out and calming down a bit is what we need. Sometimes a hospitalization can be a place for a reprieve, of sorts. If you ever feel traumatized or scared by anything at a hospital, I strongly encourage you to talk about it to the hospital doctor, psych nurse, and/or therapist. I know that "bad" hospital situations exist, but I think they are not really common. Sometimes our ill minds make situations seem worse than they really are. Please let us know how we can support you during this experience.