L, I'm feeling really needy of you right now, I felt so accepted yesterday as I laid there on your couch bawling my eyes out, the only kind of letting go that I know how to do, it seems. I haven't cried like that in a very long time. I didn't even care what you thought of me, I didn't even look to see if you had your eyes open while you were drumming so I don't even know if you saw the mess I was. I don't even understand why it has taken me almost 8 ****ing years to get here. We have circled close to it so many times. Why does it take so long? Why L why?!