If I got angry as a child, I got punished. I learned quickly that being angry wasn't okay. Then I saw the adults around me out of control with their anger which made anger even that much more off limits in my mind. There were no good role models for me with healthy anger. My former T tried to do that for me, but if she got angry bc of something I've been through it just made me dissociated. Even though she would never ever hurt me. Anger just isn't safe. It's not safe in me and it's not safe in others. I get hurt either way. It's safer to just cut. This is something I have to change. Hopefully my new T can help with this. I know intellectually there can be healthy anger, I just don't know how to be angry in a healthy way. I don't even know how to be angry. I don't let myself get angry. It's just not safe. So T feels that my SH has a lot to do with my anger. She probably has a point. It's just one of those things that I haven't learned how to deal with yet. But I have hope. Hugs. Kit