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Originally Posted by Nxious
Thanks for your post and suggestions.
Why do you think I am young and I would get along with people in their early 20s? I am in my late 30s  I guess I am not old, but I am definitely not young.
Social isolation and fear are at the core of my issues. A few years ago I was working and paid well, but still felt empty and depressed, because every night I was coming to an empty apartment, and with no friends to go out with, although I was calling and suggesting to people I knew to go out, but no one was interested. Now being unemployed makes things multiple times worse.
I need to do this. I need hope. I need to believe to take the first steps of change. But first I need to accept that the past is the past, and I cannot change it, before I can move forward. Others may have taken their chances earlier than me, which is hard to know, but if I stay like this I will never get my chance. |
Ooooh I assumed b/c you mentioned college. Doh! My mistake! Welcome to your late 30s!
No one is on the same journey, this I know. So, to compare yourself to others constantly is futile. Like the Borg storyline in Star Trek. I mean, they were a good idea but geez, they are one-dimensional already. Don't be like Mikey.
. And if you didn't catch that pop culture reference, oh well there's work to do!
Seriously, you can still do those things I suggested if you need to get out of your slump. You can literally teach English abroad at any age. And, who knows what doors that could open for you if international travel's something you think you'd like to do. Teaching English is a great way to do it.
Social isolation does no one any good. So, you definitely need to find a way to alter that part of your life. Even if it means joining Meetup or doing something semi-social where you interact with people. Take it from an anti-social person like myself. I force myself to socialize all the time, b/c its not something I enjoy doing but I know I have to do it or I'll go crazy. And no one wants to go crazy.
I still think you should consider the roommate scenario. Have you ever lived with roommates before? Do you think you could see yourself do that? Maybe rent someone's basement, or something like that? It also provides you with a sense of security too, living with a roommate.
I'm nearly 50 living with a roommate temporarily due to my circumstances, and it's not too bad. She's a few years older than me but we give each other space and are very friendly and respectful of each other. It's only temporary for me, but it's nice to have someone to talk to. If I could find another good roommate situation for myself, I think I'll be better off than going back to living alone again.
Try those freelance websites I mentioned. You never know what those could lead to for you, work-wise. Small steps towards the light.