T, I thought our session last week would be a good one before skipping a week for another training trip... we didn’t stir up any new stuff, we smiled, laughed, joked and looked at pictures. You let me hold onto the hugs as long as I need to so that I can breathe and feel them... This time your going away isn’t like the other times, the other times I needed you. The other times something still felt open, unfinished... something. This time I am left feeling connected and in some ways it feels so much worse and I feel so helpless. Feeling unfinished, sore, needy... those are normal for me. I know you said to stay in touch... AKA you know the emails are coming... but there isn’t anything “wrong” this time... nothing I need you to hear, nothing I need you to say. This sucks and I wish I didn’t have to wait... and then in another couple weeks you are away... AGAIN. I try to be an adult about most of your trips. I know they are continuing education and ultimately benefit me. I know are best sessions are right when you get back because you feel refreshed after a training... but really, it sucks, I hate it and it is messing up the continuity of our work. I want you to stay home for a while.