I get to see L again tomorrow! I just saw her today, but she wanted to work on my safety plan and that took up the whole time. I didn't get to talk to her about her vacation. It was hard convincing my H to let me go. I finally put it that since I'm missing L next Friday, this is a makeup session. So he agreed! Now I hope that I have enough to talk about tomorrow. All I wanted was like 15mins talking about how I'll miss her, I'll feel alone, I'll worry about her, and reassurance from her. I am lucky though. I know my backup backup T too! She was my group DBT T. I'm still going to try to not use her. It will be awkward telling someone your problems when you haven't seen them in a few years. I don't know how you all do it: seeing your backup Ts when you don't even know them. What do you even say? Or do you just let it all out?