Oh L. I want you tonight. So much going through my head. I miss you already for Thursday. I almost wish I hadn't planned my little vacation so that i could com esee you instead. But I had this weekend planned before I came back to therapy. So I don't want to cancel it now. Especially since H is now agreeing to go with me. I think we nee dthistime away from 'real life' . But ****, i miss you already. Thank you so much for lettin gme bawl my eyes out yesterday. i didn't even care what you thought of me. i think the 4 months i took off from therapy was really really really a good thing because i no longer care what you thin kof me. i have relagated you to the role of "only therapist" at last. i don't see you as anything more than that now and this is very very very good. but i still miss the hell out of the acceptance i feel there with you .