Thank you for sharing this. The first part of your T's email resonates a lot with me because this is exactly what I do. I read everything as warnings that something bad will happen. Every time my T talks about relationships ending, I see it as a cue that I must prepare myself for it because the end of our relationship is around the corner/imminent. it's often a downward spiral from there, into a tunnel of anxiety and obsessively thinking back to any other "signs" that he's intending to terminate me, even though he may not have meant it that way.