Sinking, I also agree with all of the above posters. I also hope you reconsider and don’t stop posting because there may be one or two people who aren’t supportive. I don’t know, maybe I’m not understanding your post fully. I agree with Misery Business, this forum is about support and if someone has nothing supportive to say, or supportive hugs, they “should” refrain from posting

Hugs and respect to all