To better explain, and clatifying, its nobodys fault but mine.

I got a PM from a moderator saying 2 of my threads had to be cancelled because were against the guidelines. and baiscally i got that my censor dont work well enougj for this forum. So instead of creating new and new problems, which i hate and hate myself for this, maybe its better i shut up.
I really tried to be good and respect the rules but it looks like its not and never will be enough. Its beyond my capability.

Its nobodys fault. Only mine.
And i thank you all SO much for everything. Love, hugs and peace to all.
And a HUGE THANK YOU