Interesting re: the hit by a truck thing. I'm finding that as I feel more secure with my T, I'm getting more worried about him dying. Like, "OK, maybe he's not going to abandon me by terminating me, so what other way will he abandon me?" I worry more with him traveling some this summer, too. I guess that would feel different from him abandoning me by choice, especially if that was in response to something I did, but it would still devastate me.