Thankyou everyone. I have just been feeling very bitter and angry. Part of it is the surgical menopause, but it’s also the anger of people turning their back on me. This would be so much easier if I didn’t feel so alone in it.
The problem with support groups is that there isn’t as much for people in my situation and age group. When I had cancer last time everyone at the clinic was decades older than me. And there is so much attention for breast cancer in people my age. I remember when I was at the clinic for a round of treatment there was a man sitting next to my grandfather who started talking to him, and when this man got called in he turned to my grandfather and told him good luck with his treatment. But it was my treatment.
And I have been between 2 hospitals, so I have a lot of people around me to make decisions, I just wish there was something to solve my situation. They may offer immunotherapy which is the newest form of treatment, but it only works with some types of cancer. With the luck I’ve had it would be no surprise if it wasn’t going to work for me.

I’m just so tired, I don’t want to keep doing this. I want to get back to living my life.